SUZYNETA IZZIYANI

Letting go of the past

Might be the hardest thing to do

Trying hard to forget everything

Keep thinking how nice it would be

To undo the time and fix the situation

Time wasted well

Regretting all that wrong

It is hard to forget all that

Felt guilty all the time

Keep thinking how to make things better

Foolish…..

Now I realized

We can only moving forward

Instead of swimming against the stream

Why not just go along

We might be surprised

How life may turn out to be…

Huh…..
After a long way of confusion and sadness without reasons, now I can pretty much say that I have gone through the process of metamorphosis (yeah! Like Hilary Duff’s song! ~ Whoa… I don’t think I’m obsessed with her anymore.. Well, back to my story!)

I mean, before… I felt sad when people call me with bad name….I mean, I don’t deserve that….But now, I think I’ll get used to it…Thanks to someone.. =P
Hehe….I even curse back! Not a good improvement, but at least I grew up stronger! Hahaha…..

Then, love life. Hmmmmm?????? I don’t feel like in love….But I just realize that I got a new best friend (my only! Need to mention that) Yet, I feel quite happy with him… Right, we are different (religion, attitude and blah blah blah….) but I can say that I met someone who can complement me well…. Too good to be true huh…. Well both of us have our own weaknesses…. (See, I grew up already…Hehehe) I mean, it just weird….I can’t get mad over him for more than an hour, or less….LOL.

Now, I’m at the busiest point of my life. Tired, but yet the experience make me appreciate life more!

P/S: Leo I love you!

FRIENDS

Struggling with being "GOODIE GOODIE" or "BOOKWORM" is actually make me
sad. I’m not that nice. And I’m not that studyholic neither.

I know, you’ll say that, what’s wrong being name. Better than "B*TCH".
Well, for me, being labeled that way, make people just don’t want be my
friend by knowing me  anymore. Suddenly, they decided that they know me
well before they knew the real me, inside of me. They only be my
friends just because either they’ll take advantage of me for finishing
task or just because they respect me very well by decide to take me as
their competitor. I don’t want to compete with people. I study so I can
find a 4-digits salary later. It’s hurt to realize that I don’t have a
real friend.

It’s been a long journey for me in finding true meaning of friendship. I moved a lot since I was little, so keep in touch with who-ever-friend I can find is really hard. So, I decided to "enough with friendship" with "lets find me a boyfriend". Boyfriend thingy doesn’t seem to work either. I mean, when they left (or I left - I mean, either way, will make me sad) then I don’t have anyone to turn to.

It’s hard - just to think how to live perfectly. Well I guess, no man in this planet is. So, enjoy life (meet new people), discover new world (Google and YouTube always help) and spend time with your family (more!).

Finally, I made a decision. I will try to lose some weight, some kg! Can I make it? Well, I’m not sure yet. I mean, I’m not that tough! Crash diet, massive exercise…Can I handle it? Well, now, I will google up some information on healthy diet and simple exercise that maybe I can practice everyday. Best luck for me! ^_^